september loves
and october ins and outs
It’s finally Friday and it’s the last Friday in September! I listened to Michael Jackson on the way to work this morning as I picked up my Friday treat; a medium matcha with oat milk from Donut Delight. #Yum. I always try to get myself a little treat on Fridays because getting through the week is an accomplishment and I highkey deserve a reward for it, I will never deny myself a little treat. I was feeling generous this morning so I also bought donuts for my coworkers. I have a coworker who is always sharing her food and snacks with us at the office and I’ve been taking notes from her consistent generosity. I admire this trait in her because God knows that I lowkey hate sharing food with people unless I really like or love them. I’ve always been selfish with food for some reason, maybe I went hungry in a past life? When I was younger, I’d always hope people would say no when I offered my food and when they did, I would rejoice inside and all of the angels in heaven sang harmoniously. Nonetheless, I was happy when my coworkers thanked me and told me the donuts “hit the spot.” September was a good month so let’s get into my loves of this month and my ins and outs for the next!
Loves:
Chappell Roan
I was just texting my friend about how I’m mad I didn’t start listening to Chappell until her tour is basically over. I don’t consider myself to be someone that’s heavily invested in pop music as a genre, but I am in looove with Chappell right now. I have the biggest girl crush on her. She looks like a medieval princess. I love the fact that she’s not afraid to be a bitch or be called one. My favorite songs from her album, “The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess” include Picture You, My Kink is Karma, and Red Wine Supernova. Good Luck Babe has also become a favorite this week.
Coco and ClairClair
Coco and ClairClair are sooooo cute!!! I love their new album “Girl” and I plan on buying tickets to see them on tour soon! They have a 2009/2010 party feel to their music that I’ve been enjoying a lot. Coco and ClairClair definitely have that rizz. My favorite songs from “Girl” include Our House, Everyone But You, My Girl, and Graceland.
Sinead Harnett’s “Boundaries” tour
For my birthday, I gifted myself a ticket to see one of my favorite singers, Sinead Harnett, in NY. Amazing is an understatement to describe this concert, I gushed about it for days!!! Her concert was an emotional journey. I screamed my ass off, I was filled with joy, and moved to tears. I danced and jumped up and down in a crowd with strangers. Dancing was awkward, at first. I went to this concert alone and I felt like everyone was looking at me for that reason, but at some point, I felt my anxiety about being alone dissipate. I was in the moment. I was in the same damn room with Sinead Harnett for crying out loud, fuck social anxiety! Her vocals live were beautiful and she is freakin GORGEOUS in person. My whole YEAR was made from seeing Sinead live.
Blocking men the first time they show me who they are
This is a skill I’ve had to work at over the years. Thankfully, I’ve reached a point where I love myself more than the idea of being with some guy or who he could be. Recently, I had a guy think it was appropriate to initiate conversation with me by bringing up the fact that he knew “I was a freak” from things one of my stupid exes told him years ago like… What the fuck? Are you cool, bro? Are you good, my guy? When I realized I had him added on Facebook, I took a peek at his profile and saw he reposted a bunch of Andrew Tate videos. I’ve never blocked a guy so fast in my life. I cannot with the male species these days, they are so dumb on a level I cannot even comprehend.
The MET
I made my long time dream of visiting The MET come true this month!!! I’ve always wanted to go to The MET alone and I’m really glad I did. I explored every exhibit except the Sleeping Beauty collection. The line was outrageous for Sleeping Beauty and there was no way I was waiting, but the art that I did see was beautiful, magical, and wonderful!!! I’m looking forward to planning another trip to the MET next month or in November. Here are some works that really captured me:
Self care Sundays
I’ve started making Sunday my self care day where I do at least one kind thing for myself. For the last couple Sundays, I’ve been taking myself to Mr. Frostys for cookie dough ice cream and to sit by the water. It’s so relaxing and cookie dough is my favorite ice cream. I love doing nice things for myself, I’m so worth it.
I had a really good September despite my grief, I went on so many cute little adventures. I hope October is just as good! Here’s what I’m looking forward to:
Ins:
Prioritizing joy
Setting boundaries
Forgiveness
Investing in friendships with women
Being more generous
Pumpkin chais!!!
Outs:
Mindless scrolling
Consuming rage bait content
Being unkind to myself
Taking things personally
Dating men
Carrying shame
Until next time, XoXo
Mood btw:
